300- (significant number three)

Have you ever noticed the significance in the number three? How often that number is referenced in movies or in life itself? Lately I have. For example, in movies three is an important number. The three mice in cinderella, the three kittens in the artistrocats, the three blind mice. To name a few. Then there is the saying "three is a crowed", or "bad luck comes in threes". Right now in my life bad things have finally come to the number three. Is it just my luck or is there really something to this significance of the number three?

I am trying to look back on when things have been really bad in my life. And I am trying to think if those bad things came in threes. It is hard to look back and be able to count the bad things that have happened to you. If you think about it has the number three impacted you the way it has me? To the point where I am writing about it and really thinking of why this number is used so much in stories or in life? What is the true significance of the number three?

300- nerd

Dear anybody who reads this, I am not a nerd because I decided to put on a pair of glasses. I am not a person who is decked out in holster/ Abercrombie/ victoria's secret clothes pretending that I am a nerd. Those are the people who irritate me. What do they consider to be a nerd? Just wearing those glasses? Don't make me laugh in sarcasm. When I was in middle school and high school I was laughed at because I liked "nerdy" things. Now, those same people who laugh at me, mock me in a way that they now thing that wearing a pair of glasses and being a "nerd" is cool.

I have news for those people out there, you are not a nerd. And yes being a nerd is cool to those who are nerds. And do you know why? Because they are doing things that they like to do. The reason I think I am a nerd is because I enjoy doing things that other people seem to find nerdy. I watch Anime, I read manga, I play magic the gathering, I play video games from time to time, I try to read at least one book every week that is not something raunchy like 50 shades of grey but something like sci-fi or fantasy, and I memories songs from my animes which are in japanese. Which I rock out to instead of one direction, horrible rap music, or the stereotypical "country" music everyone else loves to listen too.

I am not a nerd because one day I woke up and decided to put on a pair of glasses. I am a nerd because what people think I like is nerdy. And you know what else? Maybe it is but I don't really care. I love the things that I do. I enjoy listening to japanese music and watching my anime. If you don't think that is nerdy then whatever. I don't really care. But what I do care about is the stupid people who now thing that they can name themselves nerds when they made fun of them in middle school and high school. those are the people that need to be slapped in the face and need to be woken up to the reality of what they are. People trying to make a new trend, follow the crowd, and desperate people looking for attention.

300- (lust)

Lust, even hearing the work can send a shiver up someones body just thinking of what it means. images  will come into ones mind, of someone they find attractive, and thoughts race in your head. what would it be like with that person? How would I feel if i kissed him or if he kissed me? Your cheeks start to turn pink and you hold your breath. slowing letting out the deep breath that you were forced to draw into your body with the pleasurable thoughts. your body starts to tingle and it feels like a lightning bolt is struck in your body. your throat becomes a cell for the sounds that you might want to make. holding them back because now might not be the time to release them.

lust is about the tension, the build up to what is to come. it is a mental foreplay. making your body desire what can or can't be. that person who you are lusting after appears. thoughts again race across your mind. what would it be like during the moments before the first kiss? what would it be like to feel a hand on your waist, lower back, or thigh? for the hand to move lower to more intimate places? that is what lust is all about. not being able to control your thoughts or your bodies reaction to them. it fuels the sexual fire. it is a hungry need that makes the body crave more. it is a tantalizing feeling and yet everyone still lusts. even if it goes unsatisfied.

300- (stuff to say)

What I find really weird is that as soon as I have to do this blog assignment I run out of stuff to say. Then again when I do find something to say I am rambling most of the time. I find it hard to come up with something on the spot and even more difficult when I am sitting in front of my computer screen looking at my own blog. This blog assignment gives everyone the option to write about anything they want. Yet, I am here writing about how I have nothing to write about. This assignment for me is almost the ultimate writers block. Ironic when you think about it, I can write about anything and yet I do not know what to write.

So what kind of stuff do I have to say? Well, from the looks of it nothing. Just a bunch of ramblings. I feel like it is pointless for me to even be writing right now. If I do not have something important to say then why say it at all. But I still have to say something to get credit. I wish there was a way for me to feel like this assignment would mean more to me. Maybe I will just have to start writing poems or short story ideas for me to feel like I am actually doing something useful. The next time I do this assignment maybe I will have something more interesting to say.

300- (alone)

I feel that there are two types of alone. Physically being alone and when you just have a hallow feeling inside yourself. I thought about both of these a lot today. I thought about what would be worse to feel for the rest of your life. I make the distinction of being physically as being by yourself on an island with no one to talk to. Then I make the connection of the hallow feeling as being around people but not really caring or making a connection to any one so getting the feeling of being alone.

Now think about that in your mind. Being stranded on an island with no one around you for the rest of your life or being surrounded by people but never feeling a connection to any of them. Which would be worse? In my opinion I think it would feel worse not being able to connect with anyone. To be surrounded by people but never connecting and still feeling hallow. I think that would really be the definition of alone.

300 - (writers block)

When you really want to write something or if you have to write something I always seem to get writers block. Right now I can just babble about the topic of writers block but at the same time I still do not know what to write for my creative writing classes. I have ideas but I cannot make them into the stories and poems that I need. Having writers block is frustrating for obvious reasons. I will have to get my work done, but it will not be my best because my imagination and words are escaping my mind.

I am stuck between a few ideas for one of my classes where I have to write a story that is mainly about developing one character and dialog. My idea is about a set of twins that are completely opposite to the point where the younger sibling hates the other because of the vast differences. Other than that I have no idea what I want to do with this piece. Having writers block sucks. I feel like because of this block i will not finish want needs to be done because I do not have the urge to write. However, I still have to because it is my assignment. For now I have writers block, I hope it goes away soon. Is anyone else dealing with this right now?

300 - memories and inspiration

Every week I am required to write a post on this blog. I have decided for this week that mine will be about memories and inspiration. Memories are the key to inspiration. I have always been able to recall a memory and then use those feelings and senses to write what I need to write. I recall going to Colorado and standing on top of the mountain. I recall the fresh air and how beautiful my surroundings were. The memory of Colorado shows up in many of my works because I incorporate the nature of Colorado to any nature I need in my poems/ stories/ etc.

Smell is the sense that is most associated with memory because it can trigger memories the fastest. This might sound weird but whenever I smell the American Eagle "Real" cologne for guys I get a warm memory and remember soft hugs and surprisingly enough of a hunting trip. I can use this warm memory in my poems and also sadness and anger all depending on what memory I associated that smell with.

Sound can inspire my writing as well. I have a wear sense of inspiration however when it comes to music and sound. What gets me writing and pumped up/ in the mood for writing is actually songs from the animes that I watch. "in my world"  and "chain" by Rookiez is punk's,  "a world without danger" from the show "code lyoko" and any song from "bleach". I can listen to music and not be distracted by the actual words and their meaning. Sure I can repeat the sounds they are making but I do not know what they are saying. Allowing me to listen to the songs beat and the beauty of the sound. I find inspiration in this by associating the songs with the anime's themselves and then the feelings I get from them.

The last thing that really gets me inspired is obviously my own feelings. I write the best when I am mad, sad, frustrated, or down right raging. I realized without some kind of negative emotion I cannot write things that are that intense or worth reading, but for now that is really all I have to say about inspiration. Also if you really want, please tell me what inspires you.